Louise Thompson candidly shares she’s cried ‘twenty times’ this week after her son’s traumatic birth
Louise Thompson candidly shared that she cried “twenty times” this week as she described her progress with post-traumatic stress disorder on Instagram on Saturday.
The former Made In Chelsea star, 31, gave birth to her first child Leo Hunter in November and spent five weeks in hospital with complications after nearly dying in childbirth.
Louise explained that her “road to recovery will not be linear” as she noted the highs and lows of the past few days.
Going through it: Louise Thompson, 31, candidly shared that she cried “twenty times” this week as she described her progress with PTSD on Instagram on Saturday.
Louise has since described her mental health issues and has shared that she suffers from PTSD.
In her latest post, she admitted that while she still struggles with the fear of dying, she has managed some of her day-to-day tasks.
She wrote next to a photo with son Leo in a pram while standing by a flower stall that she has thousands of thoughts every day.
Louise wrote: ‘Every day 60,000 thoughts go through my head. If I can try to get 30,001 of them as non-anxiety thoughts, then I’m kind of winning. Frankly, I have never known such fear. It feels inexplicable. But it isn’t, and I’m starting to understand.
Candid: After the birth, Louise has since described her mental health issues and has shared that she suffers from post-traumatic stress disorder
‘I want to say a big thank you to everyone for the outpouring of love, your kind words, your cards, flowers, gifts and your super supportive/constructive messages…especially I want to thank you for your patience, sorry if I’m slow.
“The days go by strangely fast and it seems like I don’t get much done. Even thinking about that makes me panic a little. I don’t know if I want to speed up healing or slow down the precious moments.’
She shared that her journey is not “linear” and that there will be ups and downs. Louise wrote: ‘Unfortunately this week has not been as easy as last week, but as with any ‘transformation’ I know it will not be linear, instead my path to recovery will take the form of a jagged line…transformation all those years ago.’
Louise went on to write about the positives she had experienced this week, including having a meal with her son and partner Ryan Libbey.
Strong: Louise wrote in the caption, “I have 60,000 thoughts running through my head every day. If I can try to get 30,001 of them as non-anxiety thoughts, then I’m sort of winning.”
Some positives: Because I write down some positives every day (yes, I’m journaling like crazy), but I think talking still helps me more.
‘1. This week I’ve managed to get myself out of the ‘I’m dying’ mentality a few times without medical help. Being more aware of what’s going on in my head helps a lot to calm me down. I also tell myself that I can assess my physical symptoms within 24 hours, which is a good practice to practice because by the time the 24 hour period is up, I have survived.
‘2. I managed to attend an appointment myself. wooo. 3. Ryan and I went out to dinner with baby Leo. 4. We took a long(ish) walk in the park with the dogs. 5. My scar finally seems to have healed enough that I would even consider taking a bath. Yaks! That’s allowed?
‘6. My illness has disappeared and I have finally regained some appetite so that I can try to maintain my weight. 7. I have stopped Googling when I feel triggered (willpower 101) 8. I have stopped taking my temperature, blood pressure and heart rate and everything else I can track 9. I slept for 8 hours last night and even had some dreams (extremely weird because PTSD can list strange things from the past)’
How to get there: Louise then wrote about the positives she experienced this week, including having a meal with her son and partner Ryan Libbey
In addition to the photo of Louise, the reality star also shared a photo of Ryan who was about to eat something delicious in restaurant Bibendum.
Louise spent five weeks in the hospital after “serious complications” after giving birth and has previously spoken about how her “rock” Ryan was by her side the entire time.
Louise took to Instagram last week to thank him for everything he’s done, including “calling ambulances, waiting outside operating rooms and sleeping on hard hospital floors.”
In the post, the television personality said it had been “the hardest year of her life,” but that he helped her recover when they got home.
Together: Louise spent five weeks in hospital after ‘serious complications’ after giving birth and has previously spoken about how her ‘rock’ Ryan was by her side the whole time
She explained how he “showed her, changed pads, injected her” and brought her little one to see her in the hospital so they could bond.
Louise signed off by saying she “praised” Ryan who “had been through things no partner should ever have,” before calling him her “rock.”
She previously shared the first photo of her adorable son on her page, admitting “it wasn’t easy” to explain what has happened to her over the past few weeks.
Shocking: The reality star announced she was taking a break from social media on November 14 prior to giving birth, but worried fans after staying quiet
The reality star had announced that she was taking a break from social media on November 14 prior to giving birth, but worried fans after staying silent for the weeks that followed.
On December 23, Louise admitted in a lengthy post that she “never thought that so many bad things could happen to me, but dancing twice with death brings a whole new view of the world – a stark reminder of how briefly and holy life is real.’
Admitting that she was “a bit of a strange place mentally and physically,” the new mom said she was finally in a place where she could “see a future where I can live peacefully on this Earth with my son.” ‘
If you have been affected by anything in this story, please contact the Birth Trauma Association at birthtraumaassociation.org.uk
Sad: On December 23, Louise admitted she ‘never thought that so many bad things could happen to me, but dancing twice with death brings a whole new view of the world’
What is PTSD?
A person with PTSD often relives the traumatic event through nightmares and flashbacks, and may experience feelings of isolation, irritability, and guilt.
They may also have sleeping problems, such as insomnia, and difficulty concentrating.
These symptoms are often severe and persistent enough to have a significant impact on the person’s daily life.
Any situation a person finds traumatic can trigger PTSD.
These can be:
PTSD can develop immediately after a person has experienced a distressing event, or it can happen weeks, months, or even years later.
PTSD is estimated to affect about 1 in 3 people who have had a traumatic experience, but it’s not clear exactly why some people develop the condition and others don’t.